How to (Almost) Kiss a Prince

This chapter has everything: sweeping English countrysides, deep-seated family drama, and two men who are definitely not just talking about horses.

In this sneak peek of Making It Royal, Bryce and Arthur trade the stiff collars of the embassy for the rolling hills of Strathmore. But as the conversation shifts from riding techniques to the realities of growing up in the spotlight (and out of the closet), the air between them starts to spark.

Check out the full scene below, featuring a very competitive race, a centuries-old oak tree, and a moment that was this close to being perfect—until the rest of the world decided to crash the party.


The first thing that struck me was the smell—clean grass and loam and the faint, peppery sweetness of crushed clover. It lifted something in me I hadn’t realised was heavy. The embassy smelled like toner and coffee grounds, while London smelled like rain-slick pavement and someone else’s cigarette. But Strathmore smelled like childhood Saturdays, like the ring at Fairview Stables back in Richmond, like a part of me I’d filed away under before life got complicated.

The second thing was the sound: hooves in soft rhythm, two horses breathing like bellows, birds tick-ticking in the hedgerow. No sirens. No phones. No clatter of staff with agendas. Just the countryside and the slow pulse of two fine animals who didn’t give a damn that I was an ambassador.

Arthur took the lead at first, his mare—an elegant dark bay with a glossy neck—moving like a metronome under him. He sat tall, shoulders back, hips loose, hands steady—textbook, frankly, but not stiff. The kind of form you couldn’t fake if you tried, and it made me overly aware of his body inside those cream breeches and navy hacking jacket.

I let my gelding fall in a few lengths behind. He was a golden chestnut with sensible eyes, and a personality that said  I have seen absolute nonsense and survived it, sir. Each step loosened the knot at the back of my skull until I could almost pretend I had nothing waiting for me on Monday—not the briefing book with a spine like rebar, the inevitable memo from the Foreign Office about “expectations,” nor the delicate dance with a government that loved tea, tradition, and plausible deniability.

My eyes kept drifting to the line of Arthur’s back, to the clean angle where jacket met waist, to the way his calves gripped the mare’s sides. I was fifteen again, sitting astride an ill-tempered pony while my heart jump-started over Ben Morrow’s two-point position. My first crush, who had hair the colour of dark honey and a laugh that made me think of summer thunder. Nothing ever came of it, and after he started dating Caroline Fischer from the swim team he stopped noticing me completely.

The day Ben showed up at the stables with Caroline’s class ring on a chain around his neck, I learned two things at once: one, that my father would rather I focus on the family’s legacy—the Lewis name, the diplomatic tradition, the path that had been laid for me since birth—than dwell on whatever was happening in my chest; and two, that boys tilted my world in a way girls never would. After that, the barn was never just a barn. It was a place where adrenaline muddled with desire, where the sound of a boy’s laugh could set off fireworks in my heart. I hadn’t ridden much since I threw myself into the diplomatic corps. But the wiring I’d laid down as a teenager still hummed.

It was humming now.

Arthur slowed and glanced back, his smile easy. He half-turned, bringing the mare to a lazy trot until we drew shoulder to shoulder. The fields rolled away around us—green after green, stitched with hedges and drystone walls, the sky an old china plate. We moved as a pair without thinking, matching strides. My gelding blew softly, approving of this new arrangement.

“It must be lovely,” I said after a minute. “Having a mother who loves the same things you do. Mine never did. She wanted me to be a certain kind of man, you know? The kind who marries the right girl from the right family and produces two children she could spoil at Christmas.”

Arthur gave a little huff of laughter, very unprincely and therefore charming. “Mummy and I share horses and the family, certainly,” he said. His voice had that peculiar royal clarity—like a bell rung softly—but his tone was warm. “Beyond that, we diverge violently. She will tolerate a good, practical coat; she does not understand a bias cut. Fashion leaves her completely unmoved.” He tilted his head, lips quirking. “And as for women—”

He stopped. Not dramatically. Not with any flourish. But something caught in his voice, a tiny snag, and I felt my attention sharpen as if the whole field leaned toward him.

He resumed, carefully, almost wry. “Mummy knows they will never be a part of my life.”

I nearly fell off my horse.

My gelding flicked an ear back in my direction as if to say, Sir, perhaps not an ideal moment for theatrics. I re-centred my weight and found the reins again, heat flooding my face under the helmet.

Arthur’s eyes darted to me, concern flickering. “Are you quite all right?”

“Mm?” I tried for casual and landed in mortified. “Yes. Yes. The horse and I just had a small philosophical disagreement about gravity.”

“Good,” he said, amused, then—softer—“Mummy knew before I did, you know. About… what I wanted. Girls, beyond friendship, never looked like the answer.” He cut me a quick look. “I was dreadfully slow to admit it even to myself.”

“I wasn’t slow,” I said, and heard the old bitterness and tried to sand it down. “I was just… supervised. My mother—she wasn’t cruel. Just single-minded. Cotillions, Hunt Club dances, the right girl on my arm. When it dawned on her that I had no real interest in girls, she did what she always does when reality conflicts with her plan: she tried to manage me like a project.” I smiled. “And then I entered the diplomatic corps and she threw up her hands. Now she pours all that energy into my brothers’ wives. Poor women. They get smothered with monogrammed home accessories.”

Arthur laughed, music to my ears.

We rode in silence for a stretch, the horses content to follow the curve of a hedgerow. The sunlight came slanting in at that hour where everything looked briefly like a painting. I felt unravelled and stitched back together all at once.

“How did your family take it?” I asked carefully, because we were stepping onto something tender. “Your… preferences. Considering your family is the most famous one on Earth.”

He drew his mare to a halt so smoothly the animal seemed to pause mid-breath. I reined in too, and we faced one another. Arthur’s expression shifted; the humour slid away. “It hasn’t always been easy,” he sighed. “There were seasons that felt like weather one could not ride out—wind in one’s face, rain from all angles. But Mummy has been a rock. She kept me out of sight when she could, shielded me where she could not. I am not like my cousins. The Prince of Wales and the Duke of Sussex were born to be looked at. I was born to be useful. I’m not a working royal; the spotlight is not my occupation. It’s only by a string of accidents that you and I ever met.” He tipped his chin up. “Had Mummy not been ill on the night of your reception, I might have stayed home, and you would still be a photograph in the paper to me.”

Something went warm and ridiculous inside my chest. “Well,” I said, and heard the rush in my voice, “I am—ridiculously—grateful for Princess Anne’s ill health.”

Colour rose along Arthur’s cheekbones, quick as a match-strike. We sat there looking at each other, and I felt the moment gather itself the way the air gathers before a summer storm—pressure combining with searing heat.

It occurred to me—absurdly—that if I leaned forward and bridged the few inches between our horses, I could kiss a prince. The thought made my pulse leap. Then the more absurd thought followed, brighter and funnier: my father would die. Not of outrage—no, he’d be split perfectly down the middle, bursting with pride that his son was consorting with actual royalty and horrified at what the neighbours back in Richmond would say.

A laugh slipped out, undignified and juvenile, and I pressed my fist against my mouth. My gelding flicked his ear again.

Sir, please control yourself.

Arthur arched his brow. “What, pray, is so amusing?”

“Nothing,” I said, which was a lie, and looked wildly around for cover. Far across the field, a tree rose enormous and inviting, a knotted old oak with a shadow like a dark lake beneath it. “Except,” I blurted, “that tree is begging to be raced to, and I’m prepared to bet you a hundred pounds I can beat you to it.”

His lips parted, and then he laughed, pure delight. “A hundred pounds?” he repeated, teasing horror creeping into his voice. “Ambassador, you are shockingly American.”

“Stars and stripes, baby,” I said before my brain could strangle my mouth. “Well? Do you accept?”

He gathered his reins one-handed, mischief lighting his eyes. “Very well. But when you lose—and you will—you may pay me in suits from Clarence, not cash.”

“Deal,” I said. “On three?”

“One does not shout numbers across a field like a farmhand,” Arthur said, primly, and then ruined it with a grin. “We go on now.”

He touched his heel to the mare and shot forward, the bay launching with a power that made me swear. My gelding took half a heartbeat to realise what was happening, then surged after him. The oak swelled as we thundered toward it, and I measured distance and angle and the way his mare drifted left when Arthur asked for speed. I moved to the right, a clean line, the gelding stretching out the way horses do when they remember they were built for it.

We were neck and neck at the last, and we tore past the invisible finish line with a whoop that startled a flock of birds from the hedgerow. We eased down from our horses together, breathless.

“I protest,” he said between gasps, cheeks flushed, and eyes shining. “You had a superior line.”

“You had a superior horse,” I countered, grinning, and patted my gelding’s sweaty neck. “He’s just competitive. Won’t let anyone beat him.”

“Then we are three of a kind,” he returned with a wink.

We walked the horses in wide circles to cool them, the oak’s shade a relief from the unseasonable heat.

“You ride beautifully, Bryce,” Arthur said after a moment, eyes on his mare but his voice turned to me. “You don’t fight the horse. You persuade. That’s the mark of a gifted rider.”

“Flattery will get you everywhere,” I said, too briskly, because my heart had overreacted to the compliment. “And thank you. It’s been a long time.”

Arthur eased his mare a step closer until our stirrups almost kissed. Leather creaked; the bay flicked an ear. He looked at me the way sunlight looks at water—direct, unhurried, a little dangerous.

“Persuasion suits you,” he said, voice low. The corner of Arthur’s mouth tipped. “Competence is terribly attractive.”

My heart did a drum solo against my ribs. Shit. Is he flirting with me? What the hell do I say now? “Oh,” I managed, then added, “Well—good. I’m… wildly competent.”

Something like laughter shimmered in his eyes. He leaned in the smallest degree, a breath closer, and his gaze dropped to my mouth. He ran his tongue across his lower lip, quick as a cat tasting cream. I felt the ground tilt. Arthur was going to kiss me under a tree on a late-September afternoon and my mother would sense it from another continent.

Oh God, I’m about to kiss a fucking PRINCE.

My gelding stood like a saint. The world went silent, all the sound tunnelled into the space between us—the soft rush of his breath, the faintest click of his swallow—until, from across the fields, came the unmistakable thunder of hooves.

Both horses snapped their heads up. We pulled back instinctively, the spell shredding. Arthur’s jaw tightened.

“If that is Mummy,” he muttered, “we are going to have a very long talk.”

It wasn’t. A rider in Strathmore livery came pounding across the field. He reined in neatly beneath the oak, the horse blowing hard, and swung down in one fluid motion.

“Your Royal Highness,” he said, bowing to Arthur, then turned to me with crisp deference. “Mr. Ambassador—apologies for the interruption. A call just came through from the house. It’s the embassy. They said it’s an emergency and you’re needed at once.”

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Exclusive Chapter Preview- Prisoners Of Sodom Episode One-No Escape From Desire

The wine bottle was almost empty.

I stared at it from my spot on the couch, trying to remember if this was my second bottle tonight or my third. The label blurred when I squinted at it, which probably meant third. Or maybe I just needed new glasses.

Or maybe you need to stop drinking yourself to death.

I ignored the thought and poured what was left into my glass. The cheap red sloshed over the rim, staining my fingers, but I didn’t care. Caring required energy, and I’d run out of that weeks ago.

The apartment was dark except for the glow of the TV, some late-night talk show I wasn’t really watching. Dishes were piled in the sink. Laundry overflowed from the hamper in the corner. A stack of ungraded papers sat on the coffee table, slowly being buried under takeout containers and empty bottles.

Sheila would have been appalled.

The thought hit me like a knife to the chest, the way it always did. I took a long swallow of wine and tried to push it away, but it clung to me, sharp and insistent.

Sheila.

Two months since she died, and the grief hadn’t gotten any smaller. It had just… changed shape. Settled into my bones like a cold I couldn’t shake. Some days I could almost function—teach my classes, answer my emails, pretend to be a normal human being. On other days, like today, I couldn’t do anything but sit in the dark and drink until the edges of the world went soft.

I’d stopped going to Epic. Stopped going to any clubs, actually. The thought of being in one of those places, surrounded by strangers and noise and the memory of that night—

No, I couldn’t do it.

I’d been to the police, of course. The day after… after everything. I’d walked into the station on shaking legs and told them what I remembered.

Well, almost everything.

Two men. One short with brown hair, the other skinny and tall, both wore designer clothes. Names I couldn’t quite recall. Drinks that tasted wrong.

The cops had been sympathetic but not hopeful. Without a clear description, without evidence, without witnesses willing to come forward, there wasn’t much they could do. The case went unsolved.

And the men who killed Sheila walked free.

I took another drink, letting the bitterness coat my tongue.

Mario could have helped.

The thought was a betrayal, and I knew it. He’d asked me not to mention him. Warned me it would get us both killed. And I’d kept my promise—hadn’t said a word about the mysterious stranger who’d pulled us out of that club, who’d carried Sheila to the hospital, who’d taken me home and made me breakfast and kissed me like I was something worth wanting.

I’d kept my promise, and he’d disappeared.

Except… not completely.

I’d seen Mario. Glimpses mostly. A shadow at the edge of my vision, a familiar silhouette across a crowded street. At Sheila’s funeral, I’d felt eyes on me and turned to find him standing at the tree line, watching. Our gazes had locked for one breathless moment, and then he’d vanished like smoke.

After that, I started noticing him everywhere. A figure in a parked car outside my apartment. A shape in the shadows near the café where I got my morning coffee. Always watching, never approaching.

At first, I’d thought I was imagining it. Grief was playing tricks on me, making me see the one man I desperately wanted to see. But it kept happening. Week after week, glimpse after glimpse.

Mario was still out there. And for some reason, he couldn’t stay away.

I didn’t know how to feel about that. Part of me was furious—how dare he tell me to forget him and then haunt my life like a ghost? Another part was pathetically grateful. At least someone was watching over me, even if he refused to come close.

And a third part, the part I tried not to think about too much, still remembered the taste of his lips. The strength of his arms. The way he’d said, you’re different, like it meant something.

I drained my glass and reached for the bottle, only to find it empty.

“Fuck.”

I should go to bed. I had classes tomorrow, papers to grade, a life to pretend I was still living. But the thought of lying alone in the dark, staring at the ceiling, waiting for sleep that wouldn’t come—

The TV caught my attention.

A news ticker scrolled across the bottom of the screen: BREAKING NEWS – TWO BODIES FOUND NEAR RIO GRANDE.

I frowned, reaching for the remote to turn up the volume.

“—discovered early this morning on the Mexican side of the river,” the anchor was saying, her expression appropriately grave. “Authorities have identified the victims as Scott Burnside and Zack Davis, both residents of El Paso. Sources say the men had significant levels of cocaine and fentanyl in their systems, and their bodies showed signs of severe trauma consistent with a prolonged and brutal attack.”

The wine glass slipped from my fingers.

It hit the carpet with a dull thud, the dregs spilling out in a dark stain, but I barely noticed. My eyes were fixed on the screen, on the two photos now displayed side by side.

Smug smiles. Designer clothes.

I knew those faces.

Scott and Zack.

The names I couldn’t remember at the police station came flooding back. Scott, with his charming grin and his wandering hands. Zack, tall and lanky, laughing at his friend’s jokes. The drinks they’d pressed into our hands. The way the world had gone fuzzy and wrong.

“Investigators believe the attack was personal in nature,” the anchor continued. “Anyone with information is encouraged to contact—”

I grabbed the remote and muted the TV.

For a long moment, I just sat there, my heart pounding against my ribs. The faces stared back at me from the screen—frozen now, immortalized in death.

They were dead. The men who killed Sheila were dead.

And I knew—with a certainty that went bone deep—exactly who had done it.

Mario.

I thought about the glimpses I’d caught over the past two months. The shadow at the funeral. The figure in the parked car. He hadn’t been watching me just to watch.

A sound escaped my throat—something between a laugh and a sob. I pressed my hand over my mouth, trying to contain it, but the tears were already coming. Not grief this time. Something else. Something I didn’t have a name for.

Relief?

Gratitude?

Justice?

I stared at the silent TV, at the faces of the men who had taken Sheila from me, and I waited to feel horror. Revulsion. Some appropriate moral response to the knowledge that Mario had kidnapped and killed two human beings.

It didn’t come. All I felt was savage, bone-deep satisfaction. They deserved it.

I picked up my wine glass from the carpet, set it on the table, and walked to my bedroom on unsteady legs. For the first time in two months, I didn’t dread the darkness waiting for me there.

Mario had made things right.

And somehow, impossibly, it made me want him more.

I slept better than I had in weeks.

When I woke, the sun was streaming through my curtains, and my head was pounding—a reminder of last night’s wine—but underneath the hangover, something felt different. Lighter. As if a weight I’d been carrying had finally been lifted.

I showered, dressed, and forced down some toast and coffee. Then I grabbed my messenger bag and headed out to catch the bus to campus.

The day felt almost normal. The sky was blue, the air was warm, and for the first time since Sheila died, I didn’t feel like I was drowning.

After work, the bus dropped me off a block from my apartment complex, and I walked the rest of the way with something almost like a spring in my step. Students passed me on the sidewalk, laughing and chatting, and I found myself smiling at them instead of glancing away.

Maybe I was going to be okay. Maybe—

I stopped.

There was a van parked across the street from my building. Old. Nondescript. The type of vehicle you wouldn’t look twice at under normal circumstances. But I’d spent two months noticing things I never used to. Learning to watch the shadows. Searching for signs of him. And something about that van made my pulse spike.

I stood there on the sidewalk, my messenger bag clutched tight against my hip. The van’s windows were tinted, too dark to see inside. But I felt it—the weight of someone’s gaze. The same sensation I’d felt at the funeral, at the café, in all those moments when I’d turned and glimpsed a familiar silhouette.

Mario.

He was in that van. I knew it the same way I knew my own name. Before I could think, I was moving. Not toward my apartment—toward the van. My feet carried me across the street, my heart hammering so loud I could hear it in my ears.

The engine roared to life.

“No!”

The van pulled away from the curb, and something inside me snapped.

I ran.

I hadn’t run in years—not since college, not since I’d decided that exercise was for people with more energy than sense. But I ran now, my messenger bag bouncing against my hip, my lungs burning, my legs screaming in protest.

“Mario! Stop!“

The van picked up speed. For one horrible moment, I thought he was going to drive away. Leave me here again, the way he’d left me two months ago.

Not this time.

I pushed harder, my feet pounding against the pavement. The van was only a few yards ahead now. I could see the back doors, could almost reach them—

My hand closed around the handle. “Mario, stop!“

The van jerked, rolled a few more feet—

And then the engine died.

I stood there, gasping for breath, my hand still wrapped around the door handle. My legs shook. My heart felt like it was trying to escape my chest.

Slowly, the driver’s side door opened, and there he was.

Mario.

He looked the same as I remembered—broad shoulders, dark hair, jaw sharp enough to cut glass. But there was something different in his eyes. Something tired. Something hungry.

Our gazes met across the distance, and the world fell away.

All the words I’d rehearsed in my head over the past two months—the accusations, the questions, the desperate pleas—vanished. I couldn’t speak. Could barely breathe. All I could do was stare at him, drinking in the sight of his face like a man dying of thirst.

Mario shook his head slowly, his lips pressing into a tight line. Then, without a word, he pushed the door shut and started walking.

Not away from me.

Toward my apartment.

I followed.

We moved in silence, up the stairs and down the hall. My hands trembled as I unlocked the door—but this time, I managed it on my own. I pushed it open and stepped inside, holding it for him. Mario walked in without hesitation. The lock clicked shut behind us.

And then he was on me.

His mouth crashed into mine, his hands gripping my waist, pulling me against him with a force that stole my breath away. I gasped into the kiss, my fingers clawing at his jacket, his shoulders, anything I could reach. Spanish spilled from his lips between desperate kisses—words I only half-understood, but the meaning was clear.

Want. Need. Finally.

I shoved him backward, slamming him against the wall, and climbed him like my life depended on it. My hands roamed everywhere—his chest, his arms, the hard planes of his stomach. He groaned, spinning us around, pressing me into the wall, his mouth never leaving mine.

The kiss deepened—urgent, raw, two months of longing exploding between us.

Mario pulled back just long enough to cradle my face in his hands. His dark eyes burned with something fierce, something desperate.

“Nunca he querido a un hombre como te quiero a ti,” he breathed.

I’ve never wanted a man the way I want you.

I didn’t hesitate.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him toward the bedroom.

The first two episodes of Prisoners Of Sodom will be dropping at the end of January 2026! Mario and Austin’s love story is a project I’ve been working on for the last year and I can’t wait to share it with you. Until then, happy reading!

Confessions of a Former Scrooge: How I Found My Holiday Spirit

If you look at the image above, that was basically me for most of my life. I wasn’t just indifferent to the holidays; I was a card-carrying member of the “I Hate Christmas” club. I was the guy rolling his eyes at the first notes of a carol, the one muttering under his breath while everyone else was roasting chestnuts. I genuinely despised the season. But if you know me now, you know that script has flipped. I’ve somehow crossed the line from “bah humbug” to actually humming along with the radio.

It wasn’t a random personality quirk; there’s a reason I hated it. Let’s be real: my family of origin was, to put it mildly, completely fucked up. It was a train wreck. Being gay on top of that definitely didn’t help matters; it just added a layer of isolation to an already volatile mix.

Then I spent years working retail as a makeup artist. If you’ve never worked a cosmetics counter in December, you haven’t seen the true face of humanity. I was trapped in a mall, drowning in a sea of aggressive shoppers demanding the perfect shade of red lipstick like their lives depended on it, all while the same five holiday songs played on an endless, maddening loop. The sensory overload of perfume, panic, and incessant jingling bells didn’t just annoy me—it completely wrecked the season. By the time I clocked out, the last thing I wanted to see was tinsel; I just wanted silence.

For a long time, the holidays weren’t a celebration—they were something I had to survive. But eventually, I escaped that hell. I got out, I built a life of my own, and most importantly, I met Ricardo.

Ricardo and I had a rollercoaster romance—off again, on again, spanning years—but through all the turbulence, he was undeniably the love of my life.

Then came my move to Mexico, and shortly after, the world fell apart. Ric passed away during the Covid epidemic, and I was absolutely gutted. The silence he left behind was deafening. But the following Christmas, sitting with that grief, I made a choice. I decided I needed to change my attitude, not just about the holidays, but about how I was processing everything.

I turned to the one thing that always makes sense to me: writing. I channeled that energy into a novella called Making It Glitter. The irony isn’t lost on me—after years of despising my time in retail, I wrote a romance about two guys falling in love while working at the mall, one dressed as an elf and the other as Santa. It was my way of taking the setting of my nightmares and turning it into a place of love.

Writing is what changed me.

Now that I’m away from retail and family drama, the holidays have become enjoyable for the first time. I even have a playlist of holiday music I’ve been listening to while working on my next holiday themed romance, The Naughty List.

I’ve been a huge fan of romantic comedies my entire life, and The Naughty series if a result.

First there’s The Naughty Professor, my gay version of The Nutty Professor. Coming the day after Christmas is The Naughty List, my first snowed in romance. This has been so much fun to write, and I daresay it’s much more romantic than I expected it to be. It kind of reminds me of one Christmas Ric and I were trapped in a cheap motel in Pennsylvania. We’d been driving back to Richmond from his family’s place in Ohio, accompanied by our chihuahua, Pepe. It was cozy, warm, and… I’ll keep the rest of that memory to myself. *wink*

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If you haven’t giggled your way through Making It Glitter yet, buy it now from your favorite retailer. Have a wonderful holiday season!

10 Years of LGBTQ Fiction: Why I’m Remastering My Gay Romance Novels

Can you believe it?

We are knocking on the door of 2026, which marks a massive milestone for me: My tenth year of publishing fiction.

Ten years. A full decade.

When I started this journey, the landscape of MM romance looked very different. I was different, too. My first pen name was Enrique Cruz. I was finding my voice, experimenting with tropes, and just beginning to understand the craft of storytelling. My first stories were short erotica, and I left that pen name behind long ago. I also named my publishing company “Cruz Publishing” so I’d never forget my beginnings.

Now I write under my actual name. Over the last decade, I’ve written millions of words, published dozens of books, and learned more than I ever imagined about love, character arcs, and the art of the Happy Ever After.

As I prepared for this anniversary, I started doing something I rarely do: I sat down and read my own backlist.

It was a nostalgic trip, but it was also eye-opening. There are stories in my catalog that I still absolutely adore. But I also saw places where “2020 Ian” rushed a pivotal scene that “2026 Ian” would savor. I saw novellas that were bursting at the seams, begging to be full-length novels. I saw emotions that could go deeper and chemistry that could burn hotter.

Growth is a natural part of being an author. If I wrote exactly the same way today as I did ten years ago, I wouldn’t be doing my job.

So, how do I celebrate ten years? By giving my past work the future it deserves.

The “Ian O. Lewis Remastered” Project

I am thrilled to announce that throughout my anniversary year, I will be remastering a significant portion of my back catalog.

What does “remastering” mean? It’s more than just a fresh coat of paint (though you know I love designing new covers!). I’m diving back into the manuscripts. I’m tightening the prose, deepening the emotional beats, and expanding the stories that I feel never quite got the space they deserved.

My goal is simple: I want to give you the very best book I can.

Whether you have been reading my gay romance novels since day one or you just discovered me through a social media recommendation yesterday, I want to ensure that every title in my library reflects the writer I am today. I want these stories to shine as brightly as they do in my head.

Looking Forward (And a Secret)

Of course, I’m not just spending 2026 looking in the rearview mirror. I am just as excited about the future.

I have a packed schedule of brand new releases coming your way this year. I’m exploring new dynamics, new settings, and yes—new levels of steam.

And… I have a secret.

I am currently developing a brand new series that is completely top secret for now. It’s something a little different for me, but it’s packed with everything you love about my books. My lips are sealed on the details (for now), but let’s just say it’s going to be a wild ride.

Thank you for sticking with me for ten incredible years. Here’s to the stories we’ve told, the ones we’re polishing up, and the ones that are just waiting to be written.

🔥 Get Ready to Feel the Heat! An Exclusive Peek at Making It Burn

In this exclusive, sexy excerpt, we’re diving straight into the fire. Mason is completely overwhelmed by having to share space with the man who used to be his biggest adversary—and trust me, he finds a very cathartic and very hot way to deal with all that complicated history and unwanted attraction. Get a fan ready, because this is the moment when the line between hate and something much, much deeper—and dirtier—gets officially blurred.


Around ten, Beau stood and stretched, his sweater riding up just enough that I glimpsed a patch of skin above his belt. I looked away immediately, focusing on my laptop screen.

“I should head out,” he said. “Got a big day tomorrow. Moving into the new place.”

“The condo in Shockoe Bottom?”

“Yeah. Finally escaping my parents’ arctic tundra.” He grabbed his suit jacket from the back of the chair. “Thanks for dinner. And for, you know, talking. About genuine stuff.”

“It’s not a big deal.”

“It is to me.”

He was standing close again—too close. I could see the flecks of gold in his dark eyes, the slight stubble along his jaw, the way his lips curved into something that wasn’t quite a smile.

My gaze dropped to his mouth without permission.

Don’t.

But I couldn’t look away. Couldn’t stop wondering what it would be like to close the distance between us, to find out if he kissed the way he argued—with everything he had.

“Mason?”

I blinked, forcing myself to meet his eyes. “What?”

“You okay?”

“Fine. Just tired.”

He studied me for a moment longer, and I had the horrible feeling he knew exactly what I’d been thinking. But he just nodded and headed for the door.

“See you tomorrow, Price.”

“Goodnight, Thatcher.”

The door clicked shut behind him, and I stood there in the suddenly too-quiet office, my heart pounding like I’d just run a marathon.

This is a problem.

The second my apartment door clicked shut behind me, I shed my jacket like it was on fire. My tie followed, yanked loose with a sharp tug, the silk whispering against my collarbone as it slithered free. The briefcase hit the floor with a thud. I needed a hot shower. Needed to feel myself burn.

The water roared to life, steam billowing up to fog the glass before I’d even stepped in. Scalding. Punishing. A heat that should’ve seared the memory of Beau right out of my skin.

It didn’t.

I braced my forehead against the tile, letting the water sluice down my back, but all I could see was Beau—leaning over my desk, his cuffs rolled up to reveal the faint dusting of dark hair on his forearms. The way his fingers had tapped against the wood, restless, like he was fighting the same pull I was. Curiosity, he’d called it. Like I was some goddamn equation he needed to solve.

A groan clawed up my throat. I turned my face into the spray, but the water couldn’t drown out the sound of his laugh—low, rough, the kind that vibrated straight through my ribs. Or the way his voice had dropped when he’d asked about my mother, like he was peeling back a layer of me no one else got to see. It was almost like he cared.

My fingers curled into a fist against the wall.

“God, I hate him,” I muttered.

Except I didn’t. Not even close.

The soap slipped in my grip, suds sliding down my chest, and my traitorous brain supplied the memory of his sweater riding up—just a flash of pale skin, the shallow dip of his waist, the hint of a scar near his hipbone I’d never get to ask about. My stomach twisted. I wanted to trace it with my tongue. Wanted to hear him gasp.

Fuck.

My cock was already heavy, aching, and when I wrapped my hand around it, it was with furious resignation. Like my body had been waiting all day for this.

The first stroke was punishment.

The last was relief.

Beau’s cologne—bergamot and something smoky, like burnt sugar—flooded my senses. I could taste it, could still feel the ghost of his breath against my jaw when he’d leaned in to argue about the damn case, close enough that I’d had to clench my fists to keep from grabbing him.

My hips jerked forward, water sluicing over my shoulders as I imagined him pressed against my office door, his hands fisted in my shirt, his mouth hot and demanding. Or worse—spread across my desk, his dark eyes locked on mine as he dared me to do something about it.

A broken sound tore from my throat. My free hand slammed against the tile, fingers splaying wide as my orgasm hit me like a wrecking ball—pleasure so intense it bordered on pain. Beau’s name burned on my lips, swallowed by the roar of the water, and by the shame curling in my gut.

I sagged against the tile, chest heaving, the aftershocks of release doing nothing to quiet the voice in my head:

You’re so fucked.


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“Film Noir, Forbidden Love, and Devil’s Advocate”

Lately, I’ve been living in black and white.

When I’m not writing, I’ve been watching old films from the 1930s—those moody, atmospheric pictures where shadows tell half the story and desire hums just below the surface. There’s something intoxicating about that era. The way the camera lingered on a trembling hand or a cigarette burning. The way emotion had to be suggested, not shown. It’s sexier because of what’s left unsaid. It forces the viewer to use their imagination.

I didn’t plan for it, but those movies have started bleeding into my writing of Devil’s Advocate. The story has that same smoky tension—two men circling something they both want and fear, trapped between sin and salvation. It feels like an old black-and-white film playing on a loop inside my head.

When I picture Lucien and Jimmy, I see them in that hazy chiaroscuro light:
Lucien framed in half-shadow, his eyes catching just enough glow to look dangerous.
Jimmy, trembling, the moral world he’s been raised in collapsing around him like a cathedral in flames.

Every whispered word, every near-touch feels cinematic—like one of those moments just before the censors cut away, leaving the audience to imagine what happens next.That’s what Devil’s Advocate is to me:
A love story shot in metaphorical black and white, where the sin isn’t desire—it’s denial.

The following is an excerpt from Devil’s Advocate, which releases on Halloween 2025.

Lucien’s arms were solid bands around my back, his chest a wall of heat I could lean into or break myself against, and for a second I forgot how to breathe. I pressed my face to the place where his neck met his shoulder and smelled only clean skin with something darker underneath: smoke, spice, and the faintest trace of kitchen grease, which somehow made him more real. The throb of my pulse synced to his heartbeat, steady and thunderous, and the world went quiet except for that sound and the tiny, ragged breaths scraping out of me.

I was grateful. God help me, I was so grateful he’d crossed that room and put his arms around me when I was shaking apart. A minute before, my daddy’s voice had been chewing me up from the inside, and then Lucien’s hold came down like shelter. He said nothing at first. He just gathered me in his arms like he’d been waiting to, like I’d fit there all along.

And I was embarrassed, too—humiliated that he’d seen me like that, weak and small and scared. I never wanted him to think of me that way, as the boy who flinched when a man raised his voice. I wanted him to see the good parts: the music, the patience, the part of me that showed up at the food kitchen because I believed kindness was holy. But there I was, clinging to him like a drowning man.

“Hey,” he murmured against my hair. “I’ve got you.”

Something broke open in my chest.

The gratitude spiraled into something else—something hotter, heavier. It started at the base of my spine and streaked forward, a live wire snapping under my skin. I became aware of everything about him at once: the width of his shoulders, the way his breath stuttered, the heat rolling off him like summer pavement. My fingers curled into the back of his shirt and felt muscle under the cotton. He was so solid, filled with promise and danger, and the nearness of him hit me like a storm.

My breathing went ragged. I tried to slow it, count it, hide it, but the more I tried to get a grip, the worse it got. Sweat gathered at my hairline and slid along my temple. My skin prickled like I’d stepped out of my body and every nerve had come alive. And then I realized—mortifying and undeniable—that I was hard. Not just a little. Not just that shy ache I knew how to will away. My dick was straining against the zipper, urgent, a pressure that bordered on pain, and I was pressed against him with nowhere to hide.

I told myself to think of something else. Math problems. Sermon notes. Hymns. I tried to hear “How Great Thou Art,” and all I heard was the steady drum of my pulse. And the feel of his hand rubbing circles at the small of my back, slow, steady, possessive in a way that made my knees weak.

Temptation wasn’t a whisper anymore. It was Lucien.

And then it hit me—Lucien was trembling. Just a little, but I felt it, a fine shiver running through him that set off a matching quake in me. His thigh shifted between mine, and I went dizzy. The world narrowed to the slide of his breath along my cheek and the hot, unmistakable pressure pressing back against me. 

Lucien was hard too. 

The knowledge lanced through me, sweet and terrifying. I’d never been more aware of another man’s need in my life.

“Are you okay?” he whispered.

I opened my mouth and found nothing but a sound I didn’t recognize leaking out of me—a broken little gasp that turned into a groan. It crawled out of my chest without permission, honest and helpless, and the second it left me, I felt him respond. His grip flexed. His breath caught. The hardness of him nudged against me, and I had to squeeze my eyes shut against the way it ricocheted through my body.

“Jimmy.” My name, dragged out of him like it cost. “I want you.” He said it haltingly, careful and fierce all at once. “I want you so bad it feels like I’m coming apart. But if you’re scared—if you don’t want to—say it. I’ll stop. I need you to want me too. This doesn’t go one inch further unless you want it.”

The floor seemed to tilt. A man like him, all hard edges and masculine, handing me the reins—I didn’t know what to do with the power of it. The ache in me swelled, thick and tidal. I clutched his shirt tighter, breathing open-mouthed against his throat. My heart hammered.

Not forcing. Not taking. Only offering himself.

My mind split clean down the center.

On one side was heat, near unbearable pressure, and a promise I could taste.

On the other side—memory. It rose up mean and bright, a projector bulb burning through the dark.

Saul’s laughter in our garage the summer I turned sixteen, dust motes floating like glitter in hot light. We’d taken apart the lawnmower because we were dumb and bored and everything felt possible. He’d had oil on his jaw, and I’d wiped it off with my thumb, and we’d paused like the air had gone syrup-thick. He’d said, “If you don’t want to—” and I’d cut him off with my mouth because I didn’t want to talk about it. I wanted to feel.

We were clumsy. It was nothing like the slick sin Daddy warned about from the pulpit. It felt like a firefly landing on your knuckle—shocking and wonderful, light with nowhere to go but inside your skin. Our teeth bumped. We figured it out, and the world didn’t end.

Until the side door slammed open. Daddy’s silhouette cut the light, and then his voice was everywhere, a flood that drowned me.

 “Abomination!”

He came at us so fast I didn’t have time to beg. Saul scrambled back, knocking the wrench set onto the concrete with a scatter of clanging metal. Daddy’s hand caught my arm, and I remember the shock more than the pain at first, the disbelief that this was happening, that my father’s hand could feel like a stranger’s. 

Saul ran. 

The sound of his sneakers slapping the driveway was the loudest thing I’d ever heard until the belt was louder. Leather and rage, over and over, a rhythm I still sometimes felt under my skin when I tried to sleep. Daddy panting, quoting scripture between blows like a man trying to baptize me with pain. 

“Better to enter heaven maimed—better to cut it out—better than hellfire!” The words tangled, becoming one long sentence that meant only this: You are wrong. You are broken. God hates what you are.

Afterward, there was the quiet. The slick mess of tears, the sting that didn’t stop, the coppery taste of blood in my mouth where I’d bitten to keep from screaming. Daddy kneeling beside me, gentling his voice, telling me he loved me, that he had to do it, that love corrected error, that he’d saved me from damnation. He prayed over me while my body shook. 

“You’ll thank me one day,” Daddy whispered, and I nodded because there was no other answer allowed.

The flash of memory snapped away, and I was back in Lucien’s kitchen, wrapped in arms that held but didn’t hurt, hearts colliding instead of fists. My skin burned with the echo of old pain and the fresh blaze of desire. I pressed closer, greedy for comfort, greedy for him, and hated myself for wanting this even as it made me feel alive.

“Tell me what you want,” Lucien said breathlessly. “You get to choose, Jimmy.”

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💄💥 When Glitter Attacks: The Legendary Backstage Brawl of The Naughty Professor

Sometimes, writing a rom-com means channeling deep emotion, exploring vulnerability, and digging into the human heart.
And sometimes… it means writing two unhinged divas beating the hell out of each other with a rhinestone-encrusted purse.

This scene is one of my absolute favorites from The Naughty Professor. It’s pure chaos — cold cream, sequins, feathers, and profanity flying through the air like confetti at a drag brunch. Lux (formerly Juniper) is reborn, Velvetina Jackson is not having it, and what unfolds backstage at Badlands is nothing short of a sparkly war crime.

Grab a drink, maybe a boa, and prepare yourself for glitter-fueled violence, campy dialogue, and one of the funniest transformations I’ve ever written.

I woke up in a panic.

Everything was spinning — the lights, the ceiling, maybe my soul. I fluttered my eyelids open, and for a brief moment I imagined I had died and become a disco ball.

Then my brain rebooted. 

Wait. Who was I? Where was I? Why did the floor feel like it was covered in rhinestones?

I pushed myself upright, swaying. “Okay,” I croaked. “Check for pulse. Check for dignity.”

No pulse problems. Dignity… pending results.

I looked up — and froze.

The mirror across the room reflected something tragic: black lipstick smudged like I’d made out with a chimney, raccoon eyeliner, a tangle of black and blue hair that looked like it had lost a fight with a leaf blower.

“Oh hell no,” I rasped. My reflection blinked back, equally horrified. “I am not that bitch anymore.”

Something inside me snapped, fizzed, and rewired all at once — like someone had poured espresso into my DNA. I felt awake for the first time in my life.

A grin curled across my lips. “I’m Lux.”

It came out naturally, like the name had been hiding under my tongue waiting for the right dramatic entrance.

Music thumped beyond the dressing-room door — heavy bass, a crowd screaming, and a deep masculine voice roaring, “JAX!”

I staggered to the door, cracked it open, and peeked out. There he was — gold thong, glitter and glory — Jax himself. 

My muse, and the vessel that contained my creator, Dr. Sterling.

He was performing like sin in motion. The crowd adored him. Phones were flashing, hands reaching for him. I felt an ache of envy — no, not envy. Hunger.

I wanted to be out there too. To be seen, worshiped, and adored. But not looking like Siouxsie Sioux and Robert Smith’s unwanted love child.

I slammed the door and looked around for salvation. That’s when I saw it: a jar of cold cream sitting beside the mirror like a beacon from the gods of reinvention.

“Well,” I said to myself, “every resurrection starts with a deep cleanse.”

I dipped my fingers in and smeared the cool cream across my face. Black streaks slid down my cheeks in oily rivers. My eyeliner surrendered first, then the lipstick, until all that remained was… me.

And holy hell.

I leaned in. For the first time in my life, I actually saw her — wide eyes, soft mouth, cheekbones that could start small wars. No armor. No sarcasm. Just skin and light.

“Oh damn,” I whispered. “I’m this fucking hot?”

The universe, clearly amused, offered no comment.

But something was missing. No makeup, no sparkle — I looked like a clean canvas, and that just wouldn’t do. A diva without glitter is just a civilian.

I scanned the counter. Empty. Just a few lonely bowls of body glitter sparkled under the vanity lights.

Then I noticed her — sprawled on the floor like a collapsed chandelier: Velvetina Jackson, still out cold, mouth open in a perfect “O,” with one leg bent in a way that defied basic geometry.

“Sorry, sis,” I said, crouching beside her. “But desperate times call for petty crimes.”

I tried to pry her rhinestone-encrusted purse from her manicured grip, but the purse gave a stubborn little tug back.

I froze.

A low groan rose from the heap of sequins on the floor. One glitter-caked eyelid fluttered open.

“Unhand my Chanel knock-off!” Velvetina croaked. Her wig was sideways, one lash dangling like a sad tarantula on her cheek, but the menace was real.

“Oh, you’re awake,” I said brightly. “Great! Now go back to sleep.”

“Over my dead, perfectly contoured body!” She sat up with the grace of a resurrected diva, clutching the purse to her chest. “That’s Velvetina Jackson’s emergency glam kit, and I don’t share foundation shades or life advice with anybody!”

We locked eyes—predator versus glitter-addict.

I grabbed the purse and yanked. She yanked back. The purse made a noise like a dying accordion.

“Let go!” I hissed.

“Never!” she shrieked, wobbling to her feet in stilettos that could double as murder weapons.

She swung the purse like a mace. Lipsticks and false lashes went flying, a high-speed cloud of cosmetics. A compact whizzed past my ear, exploding against the mirror like a grenade of pressed powder.

“Girl!” I shouted. “Do you mind? I NEED THAT MAKEUP!”

Velvetina bared her teeth. “Nobody steals my look, baby—especially not a Hot Topic wannabe!”

“You fucking bitch!”

I lunged. She counter-lunged. We collided in a shower of sequins. For thirty glorious seconds, it was less catfight and more interpretive dance of rage—two sparkly demons tangled in a whirl of wigs, powders, and profanity.

“You fucking drama queen!” Velvetina growled. “Let go of my shit!”

She tried to choke me with her feather boa. I grabbed it mid-swing and yanked, spinning her like a glittery tornado. “You asked for drama!” I cried.

“I am drama!” she screamed back—right before tripping over her own stiletto heels.

Velvetina pinwheeled, arms flailing, and I swear time slowed down. 

“Ya-a-a-as!” echoed through the room before she toppled backward into the vanity. A rain of rhinestones followed, and Velvetina Jackson went down.

Silence.

I stood there, panting, boa in one hand, purse in the other. Glitter drifted through the air like angel dust.

“Sweet dreams, queen.”


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A Scholar, A Stripper, and a Song of Songs Obsession

Noah Miller has two passions: the poetry of the Song of Songs… and taking his clothes off for money. One pays the bills. The other feeds a lifelong obsession with love, beauty, and desire — the kind his rabbi father would rather never hear about.

In Biblical Knowledge, Noah’s worlds collide in ways he never saw coming. This first chapter drops you right into his life in Los Angeles — the sunlight, the sweat, and the secrets — as he juggles a PhD program by day and the stage lights of a strip club by night.

Here’s your exclusive first look.



Song of Songs 4:9- You have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes.

The parking lot at the Claremont School of Theology looked like a car commercial—sleek sedans, shiny hybrids, the occasional BMW that probably belonged to someone’s daddy. My car didn’t fit the vibe. A dented silver Toyota Corolla with a temperamental air conditioner and one speaker that only worked if you smacked it just right. I wedged it between a Tesla and a Lexus and killed the engine.

My phone buzzed.

Dad had texted.

Will you be joining us for Rosh Hashanah this year? It would mean so much to your mother. And your sister. Plus, your grandmother. And to me, of course, though I understand you are busy with… whatever it is you do these days.

Translation: Your absence will break the heart of every woman in our family and probably make God sigh heavily in your direction.

I rolled my eyes and shoved the phone into my bookbag before I could type something sarcastic like Sorry, can’t make it, I’m busy dancing naked for strangers while working on my dissertation about biblical smut.

I didn’t even know if I wanted to go this year. Rosh Hashanah started Monday, ended Wednesday, and my life wasn’t exactly holiday-friendly. I had class, shifts at the club, and zero desire to sit through hours of polite family tension where every question felt like a veiled critique.

A glance at my watch made my stomach drop. Crap. Running late.

I jogged toward the humanities building, my sneakers squeaking against the tile when I burst through the doors and took the stairs two at a time. By the time I slipped into the classroom, everyone was already there, chattering in little knots. I was the last one in.

Every seat was taken except for one near the back. I slid into it, catching a few curious glances before I dropped my bag on the floor and dug out my notebook.

That’s when I saw him.

A guy in the second row, broad shoulders outlined under a crisp button-down, dark hair falling just enough to make you want to push it back. His eyes—holy hell—green like the first bite of a Granny Smith apple, sharp and unexpected. He was listening intently to a girl beside him, but there was this stillness about him, like he knew exactly how much space he took up and didn’t apologize for it.

My brain made a note: Danger. My body made a different note: Yes, please.

The door swung open, and in walked the professor, Dr. Scheinbaum.

If you told me she was the president of an artsy, left-leaning European country, I would’ve believed you. Platinum hair in a sculpted bob, severe black dress offset by a scarf that looked like it had been painted in a single stroke by an avant-garde genius.

“Good morning,” she said in a rich, precise voice that made you sit up straighter whether you wanted to or not. “Welcome to Sacred Eroticism: Interpreting the Song of Solomon. This is not a class for the prudish, the fainthearted, or those who believe the Bible is entirely about smiting.”

A ripple of laughter moved through the room.

“Eroticism in the ancient world,” she continued, pacing with the grace of someone who knew exactly how to control a crowd, “was not tucked into the shadows. It was celebrated, sung about, carved into temple walls. Song of Solomon—or Song of Songs, if you’re feeling poetic—was essentially an ancient playlist of love ballads, seduction poetry, and borderline graphic metaphors. You think Shakespeare was sexy? Solomon was the original thirst trap.”

A guy in the front row choked on his coffee.

“Now, don’t misunderstand me—this was not pornography as we know it. This was artful. Symbolic. A woman’s hair wasn’t just hair; it was like a flock of goats descending Mount Gilead. Which, granted, is not the compliment it used to be. I don’t recommend trying that one on your next date.”

More laughter.

I tried to focus. I really did. But my mind drifted. Mostly toward the green-eyed guy. The way his jaw flexed as he scribbled notes. The casual way his sleeves were rolled up, showing tan forearms dusted with dark hair.

Then he spoke.

“Dr. Scheinbaum,” he said, and his voice hit me like a bass note—deep, smooth, with the kind of resonance that curled low in my stomach. “I’ve read arguments that the Song of Solomon isn’t just an allegory for divine love, but also a celebration of physical love as part of God’s design. How do you reconcile the two interpretations without erasing either?”

I blinked. I didn’t expect him to sound like that. Or to ask something that made me want to underline every word.

Dr. Scheinbaum’s eyes lit up. “Ah, Mr…?”

“Forrester. Henry Forrester.”

Henry. Even his name felt deliberate. Sexy.

Dr. Scheinbaum tilted her head toward Henry like he’d just tossed her a particularly fine chocolate truffle.

“A fine question, Mr. Forrester. The short answer is, you don’t reconcile them.” She moved to the front of the desk and perched there like a queen surveying her court. “Ancient writers were not interested in the binary we moderns love so much. They didn’t feel the need to separate the sacred from the sensual, because to them, they were part of the same thing. When you see the divine in everything, why wouldn’t you see it in the human body?”

She let the question hang, scanning the room with a hawk’s patient stare.

“That said,” she continued, “theologians across centuries have tied themselves into interpretive pretzels trying to ‘sanitize’ Song of Solomon. Personally, I think it’s more interesting if we let it be messy. God, desire, love, sweat, it’s all in there. Trying to strip the text of its eroticism…” She paused, letting a sly smile curl her lips. “Well, that’s like trying to eat baklava without the honey. What’s the point?”

The class chuckled.

She rose, heels clicking, and began pacing. “Let’s remember—this was before Tinder, or Grindr. You didn’t swipe right on someone’s selfie; you met them at the village well, or the threshing floor, or during a sacrificial feast. Courtship involved livestock—literal flocks of goats. You wanted to impress your beloved? You brought her a prize ewe. Maybe a couple of camels, if you were really feeling it.”

Laughter rippled through the room.

“And fertility rituals weren’t tucked away in some back chamber. They were public, celebrated. You prayed for rain and for a good harvest, yes—but you also prayed for sons, daughters, and a bed that wasn’t cold.” She gestured toward the whiteboard, where she wrote in bold strokes: Desire was communal currency. “Your body was part of the divine economy, just like your land or your crops.”

Her gaze swept over us like she was daring anyone to look away.

Toward the end, Henry raised his hand again. “What about the metaphor in chapter four, verse twelve?” And then, smooth as silk, he quoted it in perfect Hebrew, the words rolling off his tongue with an ease that made the hair on the back of my neck stand up.

Dr. Scheinbaum’s brows arched. “Excellent. And can anyone answer Mr. Forrester’s question? Namely, why that verse is so provocative in the context of ancient Hebrew poetics?”

Before I could think better of it, my hand shot up.

“Yes…?”

“Noah Miller,” I said. “The verse refers to a ‘locked garden’—gan na’ul, ma’ayan chatum—a closed spring. In ancient Hebrew imagery, that meant exclusivity and invitation withheld. It wasn’t just romantic; it was an erotic challenge.”

A flicker of approval lit her eyes. “Very good, Mr. Miller.”

She clapped her hands once, the sound snapping through the air like a whip. “Since we have students who already have more than a passing familiarity with the material, we’re going to start the semester with paired projects. Each pair will examine how desire is presented in a sacred text of their choosing.”

Groans from the room.

“Yes, yes, I’m cruel,” she said dryly. “Mr. Forrester, you’ll work with Mr. Miller. Consider yourselves the first pairing.”

My inner slut, who’d been quietly purring ever since Henry opened his mouth, sat up and stretched. Hours with him? Talking about desire? Oh, this semester had potential.

Dr. Scheinbaum clapped her hands again, the sound echoing off the whiteboard.

“All right, lovers of sacred filth,” she said. “Find your assigned partners. You have fifteen minutes to get acquainted and,”—her gaze swept over us like a hawk—“to name your project. Something memorable. Preferably something that makes the rest of the class squirm.”

A few students laughed, but others looked like they’d just been asked to pick out lingerie in public. I glanced at the blonde girl in the front row with the halo braid and Bible-shaped tote bag. Yeah, she was going to go with something like Purity and Praise. Then there was the muscular guy in the “Jesus is My Spotter” T-shirt. He was leaning forward, brow furrowed like he was prepping to submit his title to the Vatican for approval.

Henry slid into the seat beside me, his notebook tucked under one arm. The second his knee brushed mine, a current zipped up my leg.

Up close, he was even more dangerous. 

Perfect face, firm jaw, green eyes that looked like they’d been hand-painted by God on a day when He was feeling especially generous. His voice was deep and smooth when he said, “So… I was thinking we could call it Metaphorical Horticulture: An Analysis of Agricultural Imagery as Relational Framework in Song of Songs.

I stared at him. “You’re kidding.”

“What? It’s accurate.”

“It’s a mouthful.”

“Yes, well… precision matters to…”

“No, Henry.” I leaned back in my chair. “Dr. Scheinbaum literally just told us to make the class squirm. Nobody’s squirming over ‘agricultural imagery.’”

His brow furrowed. “It’s not supposed to be tawdry.”

“Tawdry is the point. Song of Songs is basically ancient sexting.”

His ears went pink. “That’s… debatable.”

“Oh, it’s not,” I said, leaning forward just enough to watch his blush deepen. “What about Your Mouth is Wine, Your Kisses are Better Than Spices? Or,  Let Him Kiss Me with the Kisses of His Mouth? Hell, we could just go with The Locked Garden—classy, but still filthy if you know your Hebrew.”

He actually looked like I’d slapped him with a wet fig leaf. “That’s… suggestive.”

“Exactly.” I grinned. “It’ll make the holy rollers in the front row clutch their pearls and Dr. Scheinbaum proud.”

Henry hesitated, then sighed like he’d just agreed to smuggle contraband. “Fine. The Locked Garden. But only if we keep the analysis rigorous.”

“Sure,” I said, biting back a smirk. “Rigor is my specialty.”

I didn’t tell him I was already looking forward to watching that blush spread across his cheeks every time we met.

I wrote The Locked Garden in bold letters at the top of my notebook and slid it across for Henry to see. He glanced at it like it might combust.

That was when Dr. Scheinbaum’s shadow fell over our desks.

“Mr. Miller, Mr. Forrester.” Her eyes flicked down to my scrawl, and one corner of her mouth curved upward in a smirk so quick you might miss it if you weren’t watching for it. “Provocative. I approve.”

Henry’s posture went ramrod straight, but she was already gliding away, heels clicking against the tile, tossing casual comments to other pairs.

The rest of the class went by in a blur—her voice weaving through metaphor and translation, assigning first readings, reminding us that we’d need to present our project in four weeks. I caught Henry sneaking glances at me once or twice, though it was hard to tell if he was annoyed or curious.

Finally, Dr, Scheinbaum closed her notes. “That’s all for today. Go forth and study biblical desire. And don’t be squeamish.”

Chairs scraped. Papers rustled. Henry stood, and I fell into step behind him as we moved toward the door. The hallway was clogged with students, and I didn’t mind the slow pace. Not with the view.

Broad shoulders tapering to a narrow waist, perfect posture, and—God help me—that ass. High, tight, and made for thoughts I shouldn’t be having about a study partner in an academic setting. My mind flashed to an image, uninvited, to how Henry’s ass would look without tailored trousers in the way. The thought warmed me in places that had nothing to do with scholarship.

We stepped out into the afternoon sun, the campus buzzing around us. Henry glanced back at me, those green eyes catching the light like polished glass.

The question hit me before I could stop it: Was I going to spend this semester just looking at Henry Forrester… or was I going to find a way to actually touch him?


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Enemies-to-Lovers, But Make It Holy: Why That Trope Still Works (Especially in Holy Water)

There are some tropes that just never go out of style — fake dating, opposites attract, that one bed in the room — but if you ask me, enemies-to-lovers is the holy grail. And no, I’m not just saying that because I wrote a whole gay romance about a snarky atheist podcaster and a sexy small-town faith healer trying very hard not to fall into bed (and maybe love) with each other.

But seriously, enemies-to-lovers endures for a reason. It’s electric. It’s messy. It’s unhinged emotional yearning wrapped in a sexy, slow-burn shell. In Holy Water, I cranked that dynamic all the way up and added just a dash of religious trauma, a shot of Southern charm, and a full pour of mutual obsession.

So why does it work? And why does it work even better when one character thinks the other is a con artist sent straight from Satan?

Let’s talk.

1. The stakes are high — and deeply personal.

In Holy Water, Julian Reed doesn’t just dislike Jude Brooks — he’s made it his mission to expose him. His career depends on it. His pride depends on it. And let’s be real, his deeply repressed desire to believe in something again depends on it too.

When characters have a reason to resist their feelings — real, internal conflict — the payoff becomes so much sweeter. There’s no insta-love here. Just slow, spicy spiritual warfare with tongue.

2. Desire and doubt? That’s the good stuff.

Enemies-to-lovers always hinges on a push-pull dynamic. One minute they’re at each other’s throats, the next minute they’re noticing how good the other one smells in a confession booth. (True story.)

The tension between Julian and Jude isn’t just sexual — it’s existential. Jude represents everything Julian doesn’t trust: faith, charisma, miracles that can’t be proven. But he also represents something Julian’s secretly aching for: healing. And that’s where enemies-to-lovers shines — in the messy space between hate and hope.

3. It lets us explore redemption in sexy, human ways.

We love a redemption arc — but make it queer and sweaty, please. Both Julian and Jude are wounded. They’ve both built armor around their hearts. And enemies-to-lovers gives them permission to fight for something real, instead of just falling into it.

When two characters with every reason to walk away choose to stay — and choose each other anyway — that’s romance. That’s faith.

And in this case? That’s Holy Water.

🙏 Read Holy Water now — and let the healing begin. Holy Water is now available at all major online bookstores as well as my direct bookstore, Cruz Publishing!

Interview: Dr. Felix Sterling – The Man Behind the Lab Coat in The Naughty Professor

I knew the moment I walked into Dr. Felix Sterling’s office that I’d found my next leading man—or at least, the messiest genius in a three-mile radius. His office was part library, part explosion, and part cry for help. Books everywhere. Three open laptops. A whiteboard covered in formulas that may or may not have been about lube viscosity.

Dr. Sterling himself was hunched behind a desk, chewing the end of a pen and looking like a gay Doogie Howser who’d aged into anxiety and never stopped pulling all-nighters.

Me: Dr. Sterling. Thanks for letting me barge into your natural habitat.

Felix: Oh! Yes! Thank you for coming. I—wait, not like that—I mean, thank you for visiting.
[He shoves a pile of papers off a chair with a panicked gesture.]
Please, sit down! I printed out a journal article for you but then spilled coffee on it. And ink. And possibly a chemical that makes mice fall in love.

Me: Happens to the best of us. So, you’re a tenured professor, a published researcher, and you’ve got a… very interesting extracurricular situation.

Felix: [blushes hard]
If you’re referring to the, um, transformation serum, that was honestly never supposed to be public. I synthesized it during a particularly lonely Valentine’s Day.
[beat]
They say necessity is the mother of invention, but loneliness? She’s a wicked stepmother with a strap-on.

Me: Wow. Okay, let’s unpack that. Are you lonely?

Felix: [laughs nervously, then stops]
Yes. Profoundly. I haven’t had a boyfriend. Ever. Not a real one. I mean, there was that guy from Reddit who mailed me a lock of his hair, but that doesn’t count, does it?

Me: …No. That counts in court records, not dating history.

Felix: Exactly. I’m just not… I don’t know. People don’t see me that way. I talk too fast. I care too much about obscure 18th-century aphrodisiacs. I own a custom lab coat with my D&D character embroidered on it.

Me: Sounds like husband material to me. But you did create a serum that changes your entire personality?

Felix: It’s more than that. The compound rewires neural inhibition, boosts testosterone, and hijacks frontal-lobe regulation. It unleashes the part of me that isn’t scared all the time. The part that doesn’t double-check his outgoing emails for tone.
[quietly]
The part people actually want.

Me: Felix. C’mon. You are the whole package. You just don’t see it.

Felix: That’s sweet of you to say, but I assure you, the only people who’ve called me “hot” were under the influence of my own synthetic aphrodisiac. And it was a peer-reviewed double-blind trial, so they didn’t technically know it was me.

Me: Felix. Babe. What if you drank the serum right now?

Felix: Oh no no no no—absolutely not. The last time I did that, I woke up with glitter in places I don’t talk about, a tattoo of a dolphin with abs, and a police citation for “inappropriate hot tub evangelism.”

Me: Exactly. That’s the kind of energy this blog needs. For the readers.

Felix: But—I—this is supposed to be a serious academic interview!

Me: This is serious. I’m seriously begging you. C’mon, just one sip. For science. For love. For the readers who like a good “nerd to thirst trap” transformation.

Felix:
sighs
Fine. But if I start stripping, you have to turn the recorder off. Unless it’s for Patreon content.

Me: Deal.

Felix opens a drawer and retrieves a small, glowing vial. He eyes it like it’s his worst idea and his best chance. With one last glance at me — equal parts dread and curiosity — he knocks it back like a man surrendering to fate.

He shudders. A low sound escapes him. And then… he changes.

The curve of his spine straightens. The nervous fidgeting stills. His eyes sharpen with intent. One eyebrow arches in slow, sexy defiance. The glasses come off and so does the act.


Jax:
Ahhh. That’s better.
[Cracks his neck, flashes a grin so smug it should be illegal.]
You must be Ian. You’ve got the kind of vibe that makes a man wanna misbehave in a hotel elevator.

Me: I—okay. Hi, Jax. Welcome to the interview.

Jax: Thanks, darlin’. Felix gets all shy about this part, but I’ve got no such hang-ups. What do you wanna know? I’m an open book. A very naughty, slightly bent book.

Me: Well, people are curious. Who are you, exactly?

Jax: I’m what happens when Felix stops worrying about tenure and starts worrying about pleasure. I’m the part of him that says, “Screw the rules,” and then actually does. I like good wine, bad decisions, and kissing boys who use big words.
[leans forward]
Especially if they wear glasses and pretend they’re not kinky.

Me: You seem… confident.

Jax: Oh, I am. Confidence is just chemistry with better posture. I don’t waste time overthinking. I want something, I say it. I feel something, I do something. And if someone wants me? Baby, I notice.

Me: So you’re basically Felix, minus the insecurity.

Jax: Exactly. Felix is all heart and no hustle. I am the hustle. And sometimes, people need both.
[pauses, then softens — just a little]
He wants to be loved, you know. Not just admired for his brain. He wants someone to look at him and see him — the stammering, brilliant, lonely man who’s never quite believed he was enough.
He doesn’t think he deserves to be wanted.

Me: But you do?

Jax: Oh, sweetheart. I know he does. That’s why I exist.
[grins again, full heat this time]
And if anyone needs convincing? I’ve got a few ideas that don’t require words. Just consent… and maybe a sturdy table.


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